Wednesday, April 7, 2010

Are You In or Out ... of Control?


Such a powerful word, isn’t it? It’s something we all want to have, but rare is the person that has it in its entirety. Some people can and have mastered it, others are terrified and shy away from it.

I guess I am a control freak (or so I've been told)...sometimes that works in my favor, but most times it does not. I’ve lost some important things because of this, but I am slowly learning that I cannot control the thoughts and actions of others around me, I cannot control the economy, the environment or world in which we live. I have come to realize though that the one and only thing I can control is me. I decided years back that I wanted a healthy, strong body so I did what needed to be done. It was up to me and me alone to make that decision and make it happen, and I did. Regardless of what is going on around me, I strive to not let go of that slot I’ve allotted myself to give my body the respect it deserves. I ‘choose’ to do this so that I give it the best possible chance at future longevity and good health that I can. I feed it right and exercise it regularly. I do so whether I am in the mood or not, or whether I have the proper time or not. I just do it and get it done. I don’t allow the words or actions of others to stop me, and I don’t give myself the opportunity of slacking here and there because I don’t want that to lead to feelings of complacency on my part.

This is an ongoing game, one I will continue to play for quite awhile. This is how I exercise my need for control—I use it on me. Why, because I can.